Well its been a while i know, but there hasnt been much new going on in my life , other than the usual! work , money, kids, and husband!! ughh
For the last 2 days i have kinda been in a stuper! wondering to myself if the life im living is just a bad dream im having!! could it be? will i soon wake up to my wonderfull life, with my great job, and fantastic husband amd a bank account that never ends , and not a worry in the world!! IF ONLY! but in all reality i know this is it!! my sucky ass job cleaning up after other people!! and my marriage to my husband who could care less if i was here or not , and sittin in this house night after night , day in and day out waiting for the big win of the Lotto Max!!lolol IF ONLY!! the things i would do and the issuses i would fix!lol If a person could sum up the word MISERY! IT WOULD BE ME & MY LIFE!! but yet i know things could always be worse!! On a brighter note!!loll My kids!! i love my kids so much and i know im always saying that but its so true~~ and my New Grand-daughter ! oh how i love that little girl!! i couldnt love her more if she was my own! she is another reason for me to get out of bed in the morning and a reason to breath!! My Life!! and then i have my Nephew!! Oh how i love my Boy!! he is the cutest and smartest little guy you will ever meet!! 2 new little lives ! and they will have so much to offer this crazy world!!then my Sister! for years we struggled to get along and had some pretty crazy fights, but now that were older with familes of our own we tend to talk more and get along better!! i would be so lost without her! Its funny ya know , we dont tell eachother we love eachother very often , but we both know we love eachother!! i think we tell eachother we love eachother when one of us goes out of town , or on a plane or goes in the hospital for something, just in case something happens!! lolol because we would want eachother to know we love them! funny really!! Then there is my parents! I dont talk to my parents everyday , or go visit everyday as i should i know, but i love them! they are everything to me!! My Family is everything to me!! Then My husband !!lolo My husband annoys the living hell out of me!! hes always right , knows everything and always wants to spend money he knows we dont have! and when hes home we very seldom talk or show any effection because were too damn busy being cranky with eachother!! i dont even think we like eachother to be honest!! let alone love eachother!! i thinks its called puttin up with eachother! just being there! thats all it is i think !! im just here !! So im really hoping this life im living is just a bad dream!! and i want someone to wake me up very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!
