Well here i am again, Had an eventfull day , worked then went to Bingo with my mom, had fun but didnt win! So For the last little while i have been bothered by the fact that once again in my life i have lost a very good friendship.. A friendship i thought that would last for life! if there were ever 2 peas in a pod i thought it was us!twice this has happened too me! once with my Friend since Elementry when she up and moved away with her husband , yeah things were fine for a short while but like this time it died out!I find it so sad how 2 people can pretty much share the same brain and speak the words your thinking before you say it, laugh & joke about the same twisted and funny things! have the same attitude about life and things, and know eachothers darkest and sacred secrets! And Bang! its gone! life goes on ! people change and move on ! I miss my friend! i have so many things going on in my life that i would love to share with her but i know that will never happen! and it saddens me to know that shes got things going on in her life and yet were miles apart and dont talk! My heart was broken when my Friend came to town for a weeks visit and yet i was not even given a half hour visit! I would of met up with her somewhere, went for lunch or somethng! but i got nothing! And yes i was and still am hurt ! that would be like me taking a trip with my husband on the road and by passing her house all together! I was hurt! I had just bought my house that she had not seen and i missed her terrible and thought i was gonna have a visit with her! and i got nothing! my house is 8 minutes from town if that and im pretty sure she had went in town for something during that week! Anyhow enough about that! i guess people just think differenly than others! People just dont get a friendship like we had over night! I have my family & my sister which we share everything too and without her i would so lost! and also a new friend! A friend that im scared to death to get close too because i dont wont to go through this again!! We laugh and gab and carry on! and shes a wonderfull person! A caring person that would do just about anything for anyone! we dont spend everyday together or talk everyday! but i know shes there! Im think im just getting old!! shit just bothers me! and im getting soft! ughh Everyone is always telling me " you worry to much" well maybe i do! I know i have come to a point in my life where im not going to humor people that piss me off! and im not going to agree with things i dont agree on ! and im not going to suck anyones asses! and im not going to bother worrying about people that could care less about me or my life!People that are to consumed with there own life that they cant find time for the people that loved them most!just typing this flares me up! I just dont get it ! i dont get how a person can just forget about a person & move on as if that friend never exisited! I havent forgotten her ! i think about her all the time! when i hear a song! when i hear something stupid that we would make fun of! when i see a chines person lol! theres so many things that remind me of her & us as friends! and its gone! i could right this in this blog because im sure she wouldnt even read this anyhow!and if she did it wouldnt fizz her i dont think at this point! i would love to call her or email her but i dont feel its my place to do so! since i wasnt the one that did the hurting of feelins! and actually it was more than hurting my feelings! it was more like rippin my F***'IN heart out to put it bluntly!And had she ever been hurt by me like this, she would be the first to let me know too im sure! because we both have big yaps & speak our minds! but this time im not!! i will just vent in my blog! on that note in off to bed! chow for now !
