Well here i sit once again, with coffee in hand and brain on the go........
Today was one of those days that i seem to be having quite often where i think and worry about just about anything there is to worry about! Bills, kids, more bills, and work and more bills and ect... the list can go on and on! And this i know is stupid of me ,to worry about this so much when i know that theres nothing we can do about our situation and yes i know things could always be worse! but hey !! if i didnt worry and look after things nobody else would! and that in its self is stressfull!! All my life i have always wanted someone else to have to enjoy worrying about all the things i worry about!! such as a HUSBAND!! lol to mean that is funny!! because this i know will never happen!! I do it all and worry about it all! and that my friend will never change. So theres no need to waste time typing about it ! But onto something Pleasant! My Grandaughter & Nephew! the little loves of my life! my reason to smile, when i feel down or sad or just plain beat up by life , all i need to do is look into those sweet little innocent faces that hold so much hope and happiness for the future!! Tonight while holding my Grandaughter i thought to myself , wouldnt it be nice if we could go back into time , with what we know now and start from scratch! and not make the mistakes we have made!! A clean slate per say! how nice it would be! and looking at those 2 little faces and just knowing that that they have so much in life to look forward too! things to experiance, pain to experiance, heartbreak to experiance! and ect... I know they will become great people, with so much to offer this world given the chance and the tools they need to survive this at times ugly thing we call life!! Life is hard! some people are dealt a pretty little hand of life, while others just plain struggle to get through! why is that?stupid question i guess really! because i believe your life is determinded by the choices you make early on!you either make the right choices from the start and do well or you make a few wrong choices that will doom you forever! is my thinking wrong? maybe! just my beliefs!I love to think and hope my daughters and grandaughter and nephew will make wonderfull choices and do great things and have great lives!
For the last few days now i have been really thinking about writing a book! question is where does a person start? how do you go about doin it ? i have no idea!! but i do think its a wonderful idea!! I find lately my mind and my thoughts are very vivid! I have never been one for change! but i really feel it coming on! something is going to change in my life! and it wont just be my children growing up and moving out! something is really goin to change! thats my feeling.just not sure what it is goin to be., thats almost scary really haha. So on that Scary note i shall end this blog tonight , So until we meet again or should i say until my brain kicks in again , I am off to bed and the start of a new busy week! Take care all.
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