Just a few thoughts...................

Not really to much to write about , just had the urge to write!! I went tonight to visit my dad, not once but twice in one night, went earlier in the evening before my hair appointment , then after i went back over, I love looking at him! i love listening to him talk and telling the same stories over and over and over, those same stories i have heard through out my soon to be 37 years in Feb, When my dad took sick i regretted so much of the way i behaved over the years as a child when it came to my dad, and i swore to myself i would never take one single day for granted in my life again!! I would gladly go hunting with my dad now , and i would not complian if i was freezing ir if i had to pee, or if i was tired or if i was bored, i will appreciate every single moment of my life with my dad!! i will listen to his famous stories of his past and of the people that my dad knows, I always thought it was funny when he would tell the same story over and over, but now im just so gratefull hes telling me something! I love my dad more than life its self, and if i didnt think it would be selfish to my children i would wish myself with his illness, i would take it from him in a second! i would take his pain , i would take all the hurt he has had in his eyes over the last few months, i would take the fear that i know at times is so hard for him to bare, i would take it all!! You know sometimes its take alot of years for a person to grow into themselfs, and i think going through this with my dad, i have become a better person, a stronger person , a wiser person , and a much more gratefull person!! I have always thought i was a good person, because really how could i of not ended up being a good person with the parents i have!! mind you noone is perfect by no means , my parents have made mistakes through out the years, but they have always loved my sister and I, they have always done the best they could with what they had and knew, I have taken so much from each parent, and made a point of raising my girls with the same values that i have been raised with , So this i know ..... My girls will be strong , independant, and honest, and caring young women, they will be there own person! with the ability to speak there mind, but yet know when to hold there tongue when need be!! My dad has always told me this " You will always get further in life being calm , then what you will if you go off half cocked" lolol thats my dad! My dad could take the worst human being in the world and find something good about them! and he would more than likely give that horrible human being the shirt off his back if asked ! thats my dad!! I remember being a very young little girl , going to a mall or a store , and Dad would always give to the Salvation army Ladies with there little cans, or we would go to a yard sale and if there was a child there trying to sell something to make some money , My dad would buy a whole bunch of stuff off there table, just so he could give them the money! or if there was children having a lemonade sale , Dad would stop and buy the whole jug of Lemonade!! lol thats my dad!! And i have passed that on to my children , to give if you can give! and that there is always someone else out in this big ole world alot worse off that you !! the stories my father have told me over the years will never be forgottin , they will always live on! and i will be like a sponge from her on out!! and i willl absorb every single one! So on that note i am off to bed!! Feels great to just write!! im really considering writing a book!! i just need to look into it a bit !! lol anyhow nighty night! xox