~~ Time Alone ~~

Here again writing my thoughts on my life...
I worked today , and as i was busy doing my thing, i found my mind wondering about the stangest things , such as my marriage ,my kids, my childhood, and well just my life.
I guess you could say i have lived a very eventfull life! never a dull moment in the life of Pam lolol, my childhood was different thats for sure, with parents that divorced , then remarried a couple of times afterwards, then having my children at such a young age was very challenging, but hey i got through it ! it was a rough road for a 15 year old to be raising a child on her own , and then to turn around 4 years later and do it again, I think my life was written out for me the way it was for a reason ,i really do, i think because of the difficult childhood i had with with my parents situations, the statistics were not really in my favor for when it was going to come to my adult life, soooo i was given the gift of having my children at a young age , and i was either going to fail or succeed!! and i believe i succeded in deed! I believe with every ounce of my being that there are some girls/woman that can either be parents or not be parents, and i was gifted!!lolol my girls changed my life, The road i was on before i had my first daughter at 15 was going to be a terrible road, but when i found out i was having her, i switched gears and did i what i had to do, which meant changing my life and then living it for my children! that i have done for almost 22 years, my girls have been everything to me , they became and are still to this day , the reason i wake in the morning, and the strength i have to get through every life struggle that may come my way! My life as a young single mother was a very rough and lonely life, with very few friends, but the few friends i did have were and still are the best. I knew very early on , that i really didnt have much to go on when it was going to come to parenting!! my parents were divorced for god sakes, and what i do rememeber about them being married was nothing to be to excited about ! BUT when i found out i had this life growing inside of me , my goal was set to be the best mother i could be! and do things completely different than what my parents did with me as a child and a teenager! I was not proud that i was pregnant at 14 , so my goal in raising my girls was to instill stronger values in there life, be a positive parent, talk to them about everything, and anything, even if my ears didnt always want to hear it !! my ears were there for my girls!! I managed to have 2 beautiful smart and loving girls that are educated and who will have bright futures in whatever they choose to do with there lives. When my oldest Graduated that was the proudest day of my life! and this June my youngest will be graduating! Statisics were really not in there favor either! considering there mother was a drop out in grade 7 and then pregnant at 14 ! by 19 i had 2 children and they were fatherless! I did my job as a parent , and im still doing it!! now my oldest is about to join the wonderful club of motherhood in May , she has a education , a great father for her child, and there happy! and well shes almost 22 NOT 15 ! I know it may sound funny but i have always worried in my life about Statistics!! Myself and my girls have beat it !!lololo the future is bright for my girls!! they can do and become anything they want in this life!! this i know is true! And what they have done already is made me the proudest Mom in the world! they are my world, they are my life and my everything.