~~~ Rage~~~

The rage im feeling right now is almost uncontrolable! Learning that the woman that caused my cousins death is now free to roam ! with not even doing her complete sentence of 36 months and has been out for quite a bit i have just learnt!! A mother of 2 and a drunk and a drug addict is now free to do as she pleases, while the rest of us who loved our Troy so much is still left here to mourn his death , and his parents who will never be able to see or hear there son! to be able to say the words i love you , or to hear the words i love you, only to be able to talk to a gravestone,The anger i have has been somewhat repressed for a while now, but the wound is now open and fresh again, I will pray tonight and ask god to give me the strength to over come this rage which has filled my entire being, the ugly thoughts that go through my head about this woman can not be healthy i know , so vent i will, The night i lost my cousin do to ignorance and selfishness was the day that hatred entered my soul, some say to forgive .. and to move on..... this will not happen for me.this woman does not deserve to breath the same air i breath , or walk the streets i walk , and she surely does not deserve to have her family, or her children! why should she? my family and My cousins parents can not enjoy him ! so how dare her!! people say she will pay for the rest of her life for her actions, well to be honest thats not enough in my eyes, she should have nothing! she made the choice that night to drive under the influance, and risk the lives of 5 others, when the only life taken was my cousins! how dare she live! how dare she breath! how dare she! the tears i have cried and the sleepless nights,and the anger that has consumed me over the death of my cousin is something i would never wish on anyone, I am not a mean person, but when it comes to this woman , i scare myself with the thoughts that fill my head! the things i would love to do to her, I know right from wrong and I know i would never do anything to get myself into trouble , but a girl can sure dream!! i truly hope with everything i have that when her time comes to meet her maker , he sends her straight to hell!! and lets her burn!! Til then im off to maybe have a drink!